Alla inlägg den 21 november 2014
So it's not a surprise, but i really suck at sport. Like one guy in my class did even come to me and helped me because i was so fucking bad at it. awkward.
my pe teacher looked at me, so freaking disapointed inside his soul. i'll not get a c this year at pe hah. i know that he wants to be nice, but it doesn't work out. i know exactly what he's thinking. i suck at it. he only cheers 'yay' when someone is really bad at a sport. well.. fuck this shit
i don't even know if i deserv an e this year.. i suck.. i'm so disapointed at myself..
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so i was in school today, it wasn't that boring. i forgot about yesterday. yester was a freaking mess.
after school i saw him. fucking shit.
he was talking so loud.. and i just stared at the ground, like i wanted to be dead at that point.
so i cycled in town, by the river. it was fun though. i was so sad, like i wanted to cry, but no tears came.
because there's no more tears, yesterday dried me out.
i was also looking at a house today, it's on sale and i was just staring at it. it's hopeless, we won't by an house. it's to expensive, we can't take a loan. or we can, but it's not good. My parents will pay so freaking high bills.
but i hate this apartment, i hate it so much. i hate this place. it's such a small place.
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i love sitting by the river, like i'm kinda lucky though. i can just walk 5 minuters and sit next to the river.
think about nothing and hear the birds fly away to an warmer place.
it's like heaven.
i do that when i'm sad.
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